Good evening ladies and gentleman, me is here, writing out her random brain thoughts :P
So i went up to london today to find people to live with!! For my time at central!!
I walked up to the station and bumped into an old friend and we went up on the train together.
Was stilling feeling very nervous, what if no one likes me?? what if i dont find anyone?? What if i have to wait till august?? Is that too late?? Will i find anyone then??
To many worries and thoughts and questions for a little head like mine!!
But then got there and bumped into another old friend and we got talking and everyone was talking for about an hour and a half and then within that last half an hour i think we all just made a group, there is 5 of us, 2 girls and 3 boys. I know the other girl and one of the boys from my college, so there is a certain level of comfont there so hopefully that should be nice. The boys are all on the same course and i'm on mine and the other girl is on a different one. So it brings a lovely change and mix to the group :D
I still have the worries, you know, what if someones not happy, what if someone pulls out, what if we dont get on?? Basically what if it all goes tits up!!
So much brain ache, but i cant seem to switch off, i cant just relax and chill because i have a group now!! Really need to learn to relax....someone wanna teach me....
listening to music....no
watching a film....no
reading a book....no
Cleaning....no
Well damn, i think i'm buggered!!
I would like to just curl up in bed on night and sleep when my head hits the pillow an the sleep, no nightmares nothing, just sleep, like most normal people you know!!
Why am i still worried...........................................
maybe i should lie down and let the music wash over me and hope at some point i will find sleep...........................................
